Beatrix Bean

So it's been many many yesterdays ago since I've written on this here Vox. I want to get back to my words blazing and blitzing the streets of san francisco and the coblestone left at embarcadero.

For wishes of my words,
let prejudice not fall from my tone,
but empathy from my throat,
sorrow from my teeth
and anguish in the sweet pout of my lips.

bruised is the lonely ego of deafened misbehaved children.

So I have been out of touch for more than a year now and I finally am back and ready to blog my life once again with VOX. I'm getting a promotion at work, trying the internet dating pool and boy is it shallow. I mean either my standards are too unrealistic or I'm not putting a positive image of myself out there for people to be interested enough to message me back. On that note horn dogs love me more than ever and I keep seeming to get the two or one word messages like "Hey" or "What's up sexy?".
   My efforts are a bit tiring and I am giving it a rest for now. Tomorrow though which is today, I have to work and also need to get my hand on a copy of 1984, I think for some reason I should have read that a long time ago yet it missed me somehow. I also will be on a rampage to crank out as much art as I can in the next few months, design a spring collection for '09 and finally print pictures for my portfolio of my recent work. With all that and going through training to be a manager I guess I really don't have time for silly boys.

I'm going to watch one more episode and upload one more episode of the tribe Season 4 and get some shut eye.

Hope all my blog friends are still around.

This weekend my boyfriend and I decided to drive up north and check out little towns. We scouted around Bolinas and hung out with the town folk, had lunch at Smily's which has been there and opporating since 1851. We checked out Dog Art, had coffee and a political debate in Pt Reyes.. Made our way to Bodega Bay listening to Trans zam, stereolab, morphine and others. It was gorgeous everywhere, apart from being constantly run of the road and a deer almost falling on top of our car.

Been so busy with school, I love my classes, I'm enthused. I haven't got much sleep as of late. I Have a wonderful boyfriend who makes me the most delicious food and is a Vegan chef at the wonderful Milenium. I biked through the Mission recently, my ass hurts..I've rediscovered a love for drum and bass, I danced my ass. So yea just a quick brief for anyone who's wondered where I've disappeared to. :)

Sad face.

If Pluto doesn't have the respect of being called a planet what's that say for the rest of us little guys..we can no longer hope to be stars...

You'll always be a planet in my eyes Pluto, and not a cartoon dog for that Wanker Disney.

Pluto

The Fray's song "Over my head"(cable car) pretty much describes my life right now.  Last night I died again.

In my dream or nightmare I got bad news about someone, several people died..some of natural causes, I died of an infected spider bite that apparently I went to the hospital the following night for in my dream, it got worse, there was one on my neck and index finger. I went to the emergency room and saw the same woman that I had saw before. I was in a panic my heart was racing, I could feel the toxins taking over, she was in a panic because she knew how bad it was, I was hysterical, I started jumping up and down saying I'm going to die, do something, she was trying to finish the paperwork for another pacient...Then it  happened, my heart was stopping, my vision got blurry everything turned red, I fell to the floor..I was dying this is how it felt, to feel my heart actually stop, I felt weird and I knew it was going to be over soon, my breathing was very slow..she ripped open my shirt trying to revive me I saw me leaving my body going into the darkness. I woke myself up crying. My heart was beating so slow that I didn't know if I was dying then...I feel like if I had stayed asleep I would have died..because before I went to bed I didn't ask for it but that's what I wanted.

I think my days are limited.

The Fray - Over my head

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Starting off the week right I've redecorated my room, deviding it into a work area, reading area, and sleep area...I think this set up is going to better suit me because everything will be accessable. I'm also in the works of getting rid of a lot of clothing and doing my wardrobe a makeover..I've decided to go to school this semester and not take it off like I had planned, I am also taking a foreign language on the side. 

What are the 5 words that best describe your life right now?
Question submitted by mojito.

Confusion, Uncertainty, Possibility, Chaos, Peace

Yesterday I went to see this documentery starring Al Gore about Global Warming. Seeing the facts put together about the way we are distroying our planet were startling and rapid. I recommend seeing this movie, picking up a copy of natural capitalism and checking out climatecrisis.net for more info on what you can do, what we all can do to bring down the co2 levels to close to nothing, because I want this planet to be around for all of our kids and grand kids and future generations, and for some of you like me who plan on getting chriogenically frozen,  for us in the future as well.

Wow...best lyrics by far today as I'm taking a revist to my favorite. No kidding that's the name of the band.

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